People, People, People

So I've been thinking... Why is it that the people that mean the most to you, hurt you the most. I just don't understand it. These are the people that know you the best, know what makes you tick, can tell when you are mad and know when to leave you alone, they are the people that shouldn't be the ones hurting you the most. And if they don't... that's just messed up then... that's when they take things to far and you want to strangle them.

I've been irked about this topic for a few days now and I wish I would understand it, but I don't.

Maybe it's partially because you have expectations for the people you know and are close with and when they don't fullfill the aforementioned expectations, you are disappointed in them and are in shock that they 'underacheived'

I dunno, maybe it's just me, but shall anyone have any insight to this topic please let me know cause i'd like to understand.

So I wrote the top part today at like one am but I need to add something. I am in like the worst F---ing mood ever and it's all my brother's fault and I'm going to pay him back so bad he won't know what hit him... mark my words, i tell ya PAYBACKS A BITCH

I question why the hell I decided that Edmonton would be a good place to do my internship. Personally I think I made the wrong choice... I should have gone and done my internship far far far far far away where I know no one... I wonder if the black hole would have had a good internship spot for me.

Think about who do I really have, not just in E town but at all... I really don't have anyone. I have a friend that is jealous, I have a friend that doesn't listen and can't keep a secret but expects you to listen and keep secrets. Then I have one that uses stuff you tell him/her in confidence against you when he/she is in a bad mood. Oh and let's not forget about the friend who doesn't hang out with anyone. And the last one well this friend just doesn't care and isn't there for me and I don't think he/she really knows me. AND THIS ALL SUCKS! It really does cause it certainly isn't cool that I have NO ONE! And this is just my closest friends... i could write a whole essay on my family.

That is all,

What Hurts the Most- Rascal Flatts

SABBY